andrea's Journal

9:24am: & i wanna go home.
but i am home.

1:10am: if i cant have HER,then why should i spend anymore time ina world thats gunna end prettysooN?

4:10pm: if i ever stop believing!

9:02pm: I WILL NOT BE CONSUMED.I WILL NOT BE CONSUMED. IWILL NOT BE CONSUMED/

9:56pm: its like i started breathin on the night we first kissed
hehe. what would be do baby?,without us?
frkejsdgfh and there aint nothin we cant love each other through.
wheeeeee

12:00am: NOT BABE FOR SLEEPY

5:20pm: SCRABBLE KEEPS DISCONNECTING. FCK

5:34pm: my birthday. my beautiful girl gave me a beautiful guitar.
&WE HAVE SHARK CARDS NOW.
eeeeee.

3:33am: iwont rest until i don't care;
IWONTRESTUNTILIFORGETABOUT IT

12:26am: just one question
will i always be so hopeless

10:19am: i am very spoiled by you.
the good pillow,feeding me like a baby bird.
you still light
the match.


i will remember,every part of this,
being in the soft haze of these
tired eyes in your sunlit
arms.



infinite.

7:48pm: &&&your soft voice
if i'm not exhausted,i am completely fucking restless&aimless.
wish i didn't live in this city.
change is imminent if i am going to be even remotely whole.


i just want that rush,
you're all that i recognize.




meh.
i don't know what home is anymore.
sleep?


edit: FUCK. seriously.

1:03pm: you wanna know who i really am;
yeah,so do i.
so do i.

10:29am: DIG IT OUT&DEVOUR.
&it'll seem more like a song,
&less like it's math.
when you pull on my hair&
bite me like that.

3:56am: austin. IRON HORSE. iron horse."GAH." some party where everyone sharpies on everyone's shirts. .oh the ennui,the listlessness,the hunger. writing "small world". on your shoulder. indiscrete ottomans. thank you,for pointing,shots of vodka at 11am. buttered black cherry?."IS THAT A GREEK?" can spot em a mile away. always needing a nap;always wondering astray from the pulsing crowd. creeping into the space between your bones like a quiet disease.sucking your marrow dry. sometimes you appear so blase. "OH NO THOSE GYPSIES PROBABLY GOT KNIVES." dammit,fucking amazing. kept.
yes. ive got a fucking headache,what else is new. doubting everything,all the time,but mainly myself. music is too loud. there goes the capability of my ear canal. youre gorgeous. not sure how to convince myself i deserve you. how do you think of me?. there is so much to say,wish i were any amount of together enough to put your face into a poem,you precious fucking human. sleeplessness. well,fuck you sanity,no hint of sun.


fourseconds

9:18am: havent felt so hollow&so happy at the same time in awhile. crept up on me,tickering in the outskirts like a half-sounded siren. alleyways,something caught in the corner of the frame,flickering forth,to convince myself my better half does not adhere to my other which is confined to space and time.

hello,austin.
hello,stranger,spring.


march? march.

3:33am: BED

8:25pm: &our skin will get thicker,


from living out in. the snow.

slept in amazing bed last night,used your mother's restroom and scale because everything was so quiet and untouched everywhere,the vacancy was rather inviting. i want to be everywhere at once. up against a wall, beneath the sheets,under your soft frame. kept. CLINTON,should fucking win. but we know she wont. give,me.your kisses. your smile,keeps me to the brink,of the sun's radiant outskirts,the infinite crust of madness,the heat that pulsates my tired little eyelids.

6:32pm: tried to talk to melissa for a moment,but everything i say has such a simple solution. of course i fucking get it. if i fail i am the one the blame. give me afucking headache everyday. thank you. thanky ou.

12:38am: this lens is going to cost me about two thousand dollars.
that's okay with me.



i love you,island. let's make it.

12:17am: and the real problem is,fearing whats real & what isnt,&how to decipher the two, you are fucking magnetic. i am just a baby.

12:56am: MINE.

8:44pm: i know what i want,okay?
when i see your face i am fucking
infinite.


everynight,okay.please?

11:14pm: FLIPFLOPS,okay. favorite shirts looks better on you,eyes are serene in moonlight.dreamy.
my dad didn't forget.i have eaten enough fat today for the month of september.
must seek gym membership.
heart-happy.

GIVE PEACE A TRI.
too many photos of everyone's kittens.
exhausted.

12:20am: ON ONE BEDRAGGLED GHOST OFASONNET:;;;;
spent.
tell me NOWWWWWWWW. eee. three degress. i'm kind of a real sucker lately. i can't believe it About my father. excuse me.
i don't need financial setbacks. "could not wish for more in my life."
OKAY,girl,am i ready. TWICE,tonight.



polaroid film.watermelon twist. KETTLE.


*%*#*%%. "you were still traumatized from dad leaving."
i'm glad i haven't fucking lost it,at least i got that part right,
i love my brother.

where's my heart.
even mollusks have wedddddddddings.